Zee Cornelius

People always say, “Count your blessings”. But how many of us truly do count our blessings? If you do, you realize, it’s actually countless!

I’ve learnt to slowly count my blessings and am still trying to dismiss what I do not yet have. The last incident really broke me. I went crazy in my own world.

I got so angry with the fact that after I had been exercising like crazy, watching my diet, nothing happened. I just let it go. I stopped taking my daily meds, I stopped exercising and I stopped hoping and trying.

But that’s not what’s right.

The Wan noticed my mood swings which can only happen when I haven’t been taking my daily medication. Now he’s reminding me every night like an alarm clock to take my necessary.

I look forward to watching Giuliana & Bill on E! these days after finding out the fact that they’ve been going through a hell lot.

While I am struggling to lose weight to get pregnant, I forgot that there are others who struggle to gain weight to get pregnant. And then I suddenly had this “bright” idea to find a support group of people who are TTC (trying to conceive) too. Which after awhile, I realize, it’s not for me.

I don’t like to repeat my whole history. Just thinking about the almost already 10 years of daily medication irks me. I wouldn’t want to tell my story from scratch anymore.

That’s when I am blessed with friends and family I have around me. I just need to talk things out. That was what I learnt last week. Talking things out to people who already understand and know of my situation is a better option for me.

Because I get very emotional and if I start my story from scratch, I might just dry up the tears I have in me. Haha!!

While the Islamic year has ended and today is a brand new day of a brand new year, 1432, I thank Allah for all the blessings, no matter even if they were in disguise, I’ve been bestowed upon with.

• My relationship with my parents strengthened
• My relationship with my husband stregthened
• The opportunities I attained for my business
• The new people I met who shared ideas willingly
• The friends and family members who lent their shoulders for me to cry on and arms for embraces
• The new places I get to see
• The challenges that make me stronger
• The infinite happiness I get everyday
• The infinite lessons I learn every minute
• The infinite blessings.. masyaAllah!

Have faith, don’t despair, for there’s always a reason to everything. Amin!

Salam Maal Hijrah to all Muslims!